I hate it! Absolutely hate it! I don't know how to fight my aversion of doing something new, but I absolutely, hopelessly not able to force myself to do something that I am not aware of. For example I tried to do today several things, among them - order business cards, find free college courses or any courses at all, prepare for IELTS exam. The result is, that I was trying to draw a nice font in "paint", but I had no idea how it is possible to make letters in two colors, so I did not succeed in this and gave up on my business cards after two hours. After that I tried to find some courses to learn, when I have a spare time, however all of websites that my friend gave to me contained thousands of courses which were free... accept you needed to pay a monthly fee that gave an access to all of these wonderful courses. But before I figured it out I spend almost 2 hours clicking on links with the amazingly long description of the courses.
At last I decided to write an essay for IELTS, but I could not find the section in 500 pages book with sample themes for essays and when I did, I figured out that I don't have enough arguments to write a three body paragraphs. So I said fuck it, and ate a bar of chocolate by myself only.
I have no idea why, but I hate to do something that I have never done before. Somehow I am never able to accomplish my list of things to do, because I am struggling with technologies, research, and everything that is new to me. I am planning that ordering business cards will take 10 minutes of my time, but conversely it takes a month and 10 bars of chocolate.
The worst part that when I am disappointed with not achieving something, I start to eat a lot, especially sweet stuff. And at the end of the day I am sitting at the sofa barely breathing because I ate all food that my fridge contained and even my roommate's food and I am deeply unhappy that I have not done anything for the whole day.
The END.
At last I decided to write an essay for IELTS, but I could not find the section in 500 pages book with sample themes for essays and when I did, I figured out that I don't have enough arguments to write a three body paragraphs. So I said fuck it, and ate a bar of chocolate by myself only.
I have no idea why, but I hate to do something that I have never done before. Somehow I am never able to accomplish my list of things to do, because I am struggling with technologies, research, and everything that is new to me. I am planning that ordering business cards will take 10 minutes of my time, but conversely it takes a month and 10 bars of chocolate.
The worst part that when I am disappointed with not achieving something, I start to eat a lot, especially sweet stuff. And at the end of the day I am sitting at the sofa barely breathing because I ate all food that my fridge contained and even my roommate's food and I am deeply unhappy that I have not done anything for the whole day.
The END.
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